My parents were raise in quebec. My mom was born in Bouchette and My dad was born in Papineauville Quebec. My parents moved in port colborne where they raised seven children. we would of being nine but my mom lost two. I believe i will see them in Heaven one day. My parents were bothe cathoiic. We went went to a catholic french school and attended church every sunday. my dad work at union carbide in welland for many years before it closed down. My mom stayed home and took care of us kids. I dont know how she did it . She had to disiipline us when we were misbehaing and let me tellyou i deserve it. i was no angel. My dad also did the discipline. and there was no time that the discipline was call for. i remember my mom slapping me accross the head for not having my booth on right. one thing we were missing as a familly is the love and affection from our parents. there was no hugging or hugs or i love you. And that as a child I long for that. But Later in years i thought about it and i told my self may be the reason my parent didnt show affection is probally because theydidnt get it themselves.so how can they give love to me when they ddint receive from their own parents. I never held againts them.i also remmeber there was a lot put down by my brothers. Like your stupid you are retard just to name a few. and when these words are repeated over and over again you actually started to believe it. and I did. and this affected me throughouut my life. And I can remember when I was about eight i was molested by a stanger who pick me and my brother up. and werent told about staying from stranger. and i dont remember if I even told my parents about that. And thing i remember is when were put into a fforster home> the reason wny is because the house we lived was not livable. and my dad build made shift tent outside and that where we slieep. But someone report it and we were taken away to a foster home. i could remember crying as they took us away. one of the foster home we live in was not a good one. i remember the foster dad took me for a ride in a wooded area and he was going to molest me. but i told him to stop. now when were return to our parents i never said anything to them until later on. we could of charge him but i waited to long. but not all foster home was bad. I remember me and my sister were taken to a couple who werre chrisitan. I remember having devotion and going to church.This was the first time I heard about Jesus. But it was not the end. i remember going to high school a friend of mine invited me to a bible study in port colborne. it was the Pentecostal church. and that night I receive Jesus as my Lord and Saviour.I started to attented a bible study in welland at copuple by the name O f norma and stuart. they called home Hupomone. a creek word for patient. eventually i moved there much to the diasporval of my parents. I guess I was serching for the Love i ddint receive. They rented a building on niagara street here in welland and they called Maranatha.Let mme tell you what it was like to live there. they were not bad but very legalisitc. we didnt have no tv had to have a chaperon to visit my parents. had to go to praying meeting if we missed it we were in trouble. and attend church. now i remember when i was sick and i decided to stayed home so they send someone to get me sick or not to church. Then one night we were in the praying meeting and my mom called and told me that my dad was in the hospital he had massive heart attack. I had to beg them to get me at the hosptiaal. Norma took me my mom and brother at the hospital. therre were met by other member of the family. It was too late my dad died. later on my brother told me that Norma had told him that my dad died because they didnt receive christ in their life. that really hurt me. i didnt believe for one minute that he would do that. so there was a funeral that i had to go. what bother me is I never had the change to say ito my dad i love him or say goodbye to him. i live with guilt for a long time. so i was getting ready to prepare to go to the funeral but again they were saying that i coudlnt because i was to serve at a coffee house on friday. But i went to my dad funeral that was more important to me.after the funeral i decided to leave the place once and for all. so i moved to port colborne with Mom.But God wasnt finish with me with yet. i atttended a life skill program in Port colborne and that where i met my friend Debbie she a mentor to me now. and she invited me to a Bible stutdy ain Fort erie. it was a home ministry.At first i was aprehenisve cause i thought It would be like the other place. But it wasnt. They rented a bullding to statrted a church. Now where i receive a lot of my healing from the hurts that i being carrying. and i i statrted to get involved with the church, I taught sunday school nursery did cleaning the church deacon just to name a few. i was also involved in dancing interpretation which i loved to do. we perform in different church. we also did a play call the champion. i play a demon.t at the church is where i met my future husband previously i did date others but it didnt work out. I never dream that I wiould be dating or even getting married. because i dint think I was pretty. But this guy did. and so we got engaged and got married on November 9 1996. i was so looking forward to started a family. . But just nine month after we were married a call from the police changed all that.My Husband that I loved and cherish and was hoping to grow old with was facing serious charged. iThe charge wwas involving chidlren. I just coudnt believe it i ask why why? sadly I found out everything in a newpaper not from him . eventually I letg him because I was told if I stayed i could be charge as a accompleice. and so I did. he did time for it. in the mean time i went on with my life and moved to canalview home. i went to four sauare church before it went to a home and then i stop. and for almost five years I tdidnt fellowship. and i knnnnnow that was wrong. what was stopping me from going back to church was fear. and let me tellyou fear can cripple if you dont deal with. and so finally i call the 100 Huntely talk to a councellor and redicate my life to jesus. and then i went and try out freedomin christ church and i have been since. I thank God for the work he did in my life and for what he going to do in the future.
No comments:
Post a Comment